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May. 19th, 2009

a little mad

"I Can't Stay Much Longer, Riding My Decision Home"

Ahh, there's nothing like knowing you should go to sleep, but ignoring your brain and staying up 3 hours later than you wanted to. It's 1:30am. So normal, I guess. I have the weirdest sleep patterns now.

So tomorrow I get to fly to Florida for the PSA International Conference. It's basically a three-day school for skating coaches. Should be fun, since I've never been to Florida, but then again, most of my time will be spent inside listening to people talk. Or, if I'm really lucky, we'll be standing in a freezing cold ice arena listening to people talk.

Did you catch the sarcasm? Oh, good.

All in all, it should be a good time. At least most of the things they will be talking about I find interesting. I'm always amazed when people find a better, easier way to do things in skating. Plus, we get wednesday all to ourselves. I guess my coach, who I'm going with, has some connection to some higher-up at Universal (try sister's husband's brother's girlfriend's father. A literal 6 degrees of separation), so we have V.I.P passes to Universal Studios. We get in for free, go to the front of every line, and some other stuff. I've never been V.I.P anything, so this should be fun. I swear it won't go to my head.

On a side note, maybe I should employ my brother as my butler...

I'll miss everyone around here. I know it's only until monday, but it's so weird now to go more than 2 days without seeing Karsten or Neil or Jess.They've been around so much lately. I think it's keeping me from going stir crazy at work. I guess I never really noticed how much time I really spent with my friends until I came back home. It was almost every day, and for hours. I've really had time to realize how much I appreciate them. I mean, even if I'm angry or annoyed with them, I know that in time we'll be back to laughing and hanging out. That's just how much I love some of the people I know. I've become more forgiving, I think. Even if I say I won't forgive a person, usually now it's just me trying to act tough. I'll do it. I don't have the energy to hold grudges anymore. Some things are just more important.

Well, there's always a bright side. I'm glad I have people that I'm comfortable enough with that I can just be myself around them. I don't have to hold back and worry about being the person they want me to be. I'm too much of a happy person to be depressed, but I can be so unnecessarily happy sometimes, and I put on this act so no one thinks anything is wrong. I'm glad I can drop that act around people now. I can only imagine that the crying in public is going to start next. Not that I'm much of a crier.

Apr. 3rd, 2009

a little mad

:Don't you wanna come with me? Don't you wanna feel my bones on your bones? It's only natural."

Wow, the past few days have been such a roller coaster... I think I've run through every single emotion I can think of.

Well, the good news is I'm extremely happy now. I just spend the most amazing night with some of the most amazing people. Neil, Karsten, Jess, Decker, Tyler and I all decided not to spend our entire night in the student center today, so we went for a walk. Jones-Goddard courtyard is creepy... I would put a picture, but i broke my camera (ooooooppppssss). Anyway, it started to rain, and even though the thunderstorm was AMAZING, we went to Buell so we wouldn't get all wet. We played the greatest game of Apples to Apples! And then, we got doughnuts. Seriously, I don't think I've had that much fun in a while. I haven't laughed that hard in a really long time... You know how you laugh so much that you feel like you just did 1000 situps, and then got punched in the abs? Yeah, it's kinda like that. Just, one of the best days ever. I don't think I could love anyone more than I love my friends right now. And, you know, for a while I forgot that I was sad today, and I felt good about myself again, and I stopped worrying so much, and just had fun. But yeah...

But things are just happening that are so out of my control. It's, basically just a lot of sitting and watching things happen around me, but it's been really affecting my mood lately. All of that is basically the cause of all of this emotional stuff. I know that I think some pretty irrational things. Like now, I have no idea why I was mad, but I was. I still am a little bit, but i'm working on getting over it. Also, I am so scared that I won't be accepted into my major, and if that happens I have no idea what to do.

But I have the most amazing friends, and I know I'll get through this somehow. It just might take a while, and a lot of late nights of fun. (seriously, it's 5:30 in the morning, I'm still not in bed, and I have a 9am class...)

Mar. 2nd, 2009

love you a latte

Busy, busy, busy

So, I got a haircut! Finally, after talking about it for weeks. That's not that great of a picture, but I swear I'll have a better picture later. Preferably one that's not taken by me (hey Carina...). 

But yeah, I had a nice, relaxing break. Honestly, it was lovely. I did a lot of sleeping, and NO WORK AT ALL... which I now regret, because I remember that I had some catching up to do, so I'm a bit behind. And by a bit I mean a lot. It was worth it, though. I actually saw some friends over break! Samara took Sayo (one of the japanese exchange students) home with her for break, and we went to downtown Detroit one afternoon. We ate at Hard Rock Cafe (yummmmmmmmy) and then skated at Campus Martius. Ahh, Sayo is so adorable! I would show her how to do something on the ice and she would get all excited and say, "I will go practice!". Oh, and I saw Floyd! I forgot how much I enjoy hanging out with him.

Random, but why do some people feel the need to make EVERYTHING as dramatic as possible? Really... just one certain person...

But anyway, I should get back to studying... mmm, studying...


Feb. 27th, 2009


Meme thing, stolen from Niki.

Comment to this post and I will give you 5 subjects/things I associate you with. Then post this in your LJ and elaborate on the subjects given.

Niki gave me:

     Haha, I'm not surprised at all that this was the first one. I spent most of my time skating last year, and I still skate when I can now. I've just been doing it forever (since I was 5), and I don't think I'll ever be able to completely stop. It's kinda therapeutic for me, too. If I'm having a bad day, sometimes it helps to just go to the rink and skate. Oh, and I guess I'm pretty good, too. Although, most of my medals I've gotten in skating have been from team, so it's not just me.

Yes, those are mine. From many years of skating.

   Okay, so, I've seen a few dramas... That's a lie, I've seen a ton. For some reason they're just really entertaining to me (and it doesn't hurt that they usually have some very cute guys ;D ). Hmm, it's hard to pick a favorite, but I would probably say Hana Kimi (which is sooooo funny, if not a bit *cough cough* unrealistic...) or Kurosagi (which I recommend for anyone who's into detective or spy stuff) Up to right now, the japanese one's I've watched are:
  • Gokusen (1, 2, and 3) (all were good, but they recycled the story lines from the first one in the other two...)
  • Nobuta Wo Produce ( it's super funny)
  • Akihabara@Deep (which I have to admit, I only watched because of Ikuta Toma, but it ended up being really interesting and I liked it a lot)
  • Stand Up!! (aww, this one is so cute. Plus, Nino, Yamapi, Oguri Shun, and Narimiya Hiroki... they all did really well in their roles.)
  • Bambino (was a little disappointing to me, but it was still good. Had to see it because of Matsujun)
  • Kurosagi (ajdhbafgaoieuyhbgvahkhs, so good! And Yamapi is really great at brooding.)
  • Attention Please (cute and funny, and Ueto Aya is cool.)
  • Hana Yori Dango (still one of my favorites. I love this drama, the movie... not so much.)
  • Hanazakari no Kimitachi e, or Hana Kimi (yeah, super good. My only complaint is that she still looked so much like a girl, that I have no idea how no one figured it out...)
  • 1 Litre no Namida (1 litre of tears... it's a cry-fest, but it's amazing. And even though they made this girl's life into a Lifetime movie, I still liked it a lot.)
  • Majo no Jouken (it's kinda old, and very dramatic, but I'm a sucker for romance and Takizawa Hideaki)
  • Kimi wa Pet (my first drama, because of the first Johnny's boy I ever knew of, Matsujun. It was cute and romantic, and again, me romance=sucker)
Yeah, so it's a long list. I've also recently watched some Korean and Taiwanese dramas, and I'm in the middle of watch Maou (which came highly recommended by Liz, and I'm enjoying so far).

   Well, with my full keyboard phone I have gotten rather good at texting, I guess. It's weird how texting has become such a big way to communicate. It just seems like it would be faster to have a conversation by calling someone, but at the same time, I HATE talking on the phone, so texting works for me. It gets annoying, though. Like when I get 20 texts from one person in the same day! Yeah, that gets annoying.

4.japanese class (even though we never had one together... your still part of that collective)
   We're like a cult now, aren't we?  XD  '' Join uuuuuussssssss....''  
Yeah, I love Japanese class. Even though it has nothing to do with my major, and some people say I'm wasting my time. It's just so interesting and fun! Also, I think it'll be useful for me to learn a few languages. I also want to learn French, Italian, and maybe Spanish and Korean. Oh, maybe German, too, but I think German sounds weird, so I'm not a big fan of it...

5.England (damn I hope you get to go)
   AHHHH, it's only my dream place to live! I've wanted to go to England since I was young. I was talking to my mom this week, and I guess we still have some distant family there, too (like, great-aunt once removed, or something like that) I think this is all because the first movie I remember seeing is either Thumbalina or Monty Python and the Holy Grail. Yeah, my family is a big Monty Python fan, so it's kind of in my blood. But yeah, if I get accepted into the program, I don't care how much it is, I'm going (all aboard the debt train! *CHOO CHOO*)

Feb. 7th, 2009

ryo happy

Meme, because I am bored

1.Reply to this post and I'll assign you a letter:.
2. List (and upload, if you feel like it) 5 songs that start with that letter.
3. Post them to your journal with these instructions.

I have Y...

1. Your Heart is an Empty Room - Death Cab For Cutie
2. You're So Damn Hot - OK Go
3. you - M. Graveyard
4. Yorimichi - Kanjani8
5. Yesterday - The Beatles

So, actually easier than I thought it would be!


Jan. 31st, 2009


So, a few personal updates

I've been doing pretty good so far this semester. 18 credits is... not as bad as I thought it would be. I mean, I'm pretty busy, but it's not that bad. Oh, but next year... >_<

I've been being really introspective lately, so if I seem sad or disinterested sometimes, it's just because I'm thinking about stuff. I might post some of it soon, just so it will stop nagging at me all of the time.

In other news, I've decided on a few things that might have bad effects on my school/money situations. I'm definitely going to study abroad next year. Only for a semester though. And I've decided on a place (finally): University of Derby in England! I got a prospectus from them, and they have a sports science program, so I'm set as far as getting classes in my major (I hope.....). Also, after playing with now two really nice cameras in the past couple months, I've decided to spend a bunch of money and get a nice camera. The only problem is, these two plans don't really help each other out. To study abroad I have to start saving money now, but I REALLY want a nice camera... AHH! THE DECISIONS! 

So, because I like ending things on a good note, and this is adorable! :

Dec. 25th, 2008


Christmas craziness

So, umm, this year's Christmas was... interesting. I got money. And some more money. And a gas card. Which is good, because now i don't have to bother with taking anything back, and I can use it on pretty much anything I want (external hard drive, new clothes, video camera, or you know, saving it for my future *notlikely*)

But my family (which is... also interesting) was in top form today. My mom is still the Grinch, and was irritable and crazy today. No different than any other holiday, I guess. Oh, and my grandma called me fat. And MEANT IT. Not really in so many words, but she did say I should find a "walking buddy", and when I asked her why, she said, "Well, you have put on a bit of weight since you stopped skating..." Let's just say, I was not happy about that AT all. So for the rest of the day any time I said anything to her it was a pun about my weight. I swear, my grandma has a level of bitchiness that some people ASPIRE to.

All in all, good-ish day. Amusing, at least.

Dec. 21st, 2008

toma heart

(no subject)

So, yeah, break is going. It's nice being home and being able to relax, but seriously... the only person I've really spent time with is my mom. It's kind of lonely here. I've spent all of my time on my computer. Oh, also:

cutest thing I've seen all week.